I am a totally invested couch potato when it comes to the shows that I watch. Every season, I have a spreadsheet that I concoct filled with information that I use to persuade my family and friends into which shows they should be watching, I have even been known to enforce this on unsuspecting co-wokers at times. Just the same for the past few years NCIS was always at the top of that list. I had fallen in love with Gibbs (Mark Harmon) and his rules. I loved the way he says so much with his eyes and body movement and so little comes out of his mouth. He has an efficiency with words that I could never quite master in my real life. I always thought that if I could hold back a bit more and keep it simpler, life might be a bit simpler, but that is not always the way of things. I could sit here and wax poetic about how cool Tony DiNozzo is, or how cool McGee is and how much I love Abby and her quick wit or Ducky and his bowties. The truth of the matter is that, while I loved Kate (Sasha Alexander) before she was fatally shot to death on the roof of that building, the love affair was not totally solidified until Ziva David walked onto the scene. Ziva is an assassin for Moussad and she can kill you with her thumb. That is something to aspire to if only in your imaginary mind. I loved that she couldn’t drive and didn’t care what you thought about how bad her driving was. She had this quiet warmth about her underneath the tough exterior that spoke to me. Hell, I would give anything to be able to gut punch someone and have it really hurt when I did it. I strongly doubt that I could deliver that kind of blow without simultaneously breaking something on my person like my foot, when I should have used my hand. She and Gibbs had this understanding, he had held attributes that her father never showed. He wasn’t a kind man, and while he was her father, he had a distance in him that translated in the things that he did and never said. So when he was killed, I figured that it would change her. There is always guilt in a situation like that, and I worried that she would have a hard time coming back from it. I didn’t expect her to decide to up and leave the dang show though. So to be honest, it has taken me quite some time to come to terms with it. Now if you know me, then you know that I will boycott a show in heart beat if I strongly disagree with the direction that they have taken; relegating a once beloved show to me into something I have collecting in my DVR to never to be bothered to watch again. You can feel free to reference my CSI years here. The minute that they got rid of Grissom I was done with them, and while I love Ted Dansen even he was not enough to bring me back from the brink. So when Ziva left and Tony had to watch her go, I just figured that I would be fair. I didn’t want to give up on yet another show. I tried, I really really tried people. I have barely watched this season. Its actually recording right now and I am not watching it. I have given my full attention to Gotham, Sleepy Hollow, hell I have even given my full attention to How to get away with murder, but I cannot bring my self to care about the story anymore. I feel listless watching it because I always figured that my true love was Gibbs, and that over time I would be ok with Ziva leaving. Now I am starting to feel like, maybe I was wrong and this feeling will not be going away any time soon. Its not that I don’t still love Gibbs, but honestly, I feel like we need to get a new assassin or something. Not a replacement for Ziva because that won’t work, but something a bit different. I don’t know maybe someone who is more challenging for Tony or heck I would even be ok bringing on that Coast Guard commander who is like the female version of Gibbs. I couldn’t be a writer on this show, honestly but I literally feel like I can’t be the only person who is not feeling the love this season. Jeez, I can barely sink my teeth into NCIS: New Orleans and that is literally one of my most favorite places in the whole entire world. So who out there has had something like this happen to them. I can’t possibly be the only one. This is literally almost as bad as replacement of ‘becky’ on Roseanne. So who can commiserate, I know I couldn’t possibly be the only one annoyed over here…..Anyone?